Today my “Good Morning” was met with a peculiar expression.
Try to imagine what sadness, anger, distraught and exhaustion look like all wrapped up in one.... that is what I was greeted with.
As I went over the day’s plans. Mother started shaking her head and snapped at me...
“I don’t feel good. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up again. I just want to stay asleep!!!”
She was back in that mood. The mood that makes her uncooperative. The mood that makes her just sit there and look at me like I disgust her. The mood that makes me want to say...
Fuck. This. Shit.
But these last few weeks of watching The Husband interact with her has taught me patience. This is her new normal. Her moods fluctuate daily. One day she’s joking around, walking up the stairs and pushing thru with determination ... other times she just blank stares a fuck you look all day.
Today is a Fuck You day. I will roll up my sleeves and deal with it.
“Well I’m sorry you don’t feel well today. I will give you some time to yourself before today’s therapy sessions... Because you WILL have your sessions. Let me know if there’s something I can do to make you feel better.” .... and I walked away.
Tomorrow will be a better day.
- Adila F.Q.